Because I'm a completely rational and normal person, Saturday morning I woke up in a warm, snuggly bed with my husband while the snow came down outside, and decided to pick a fight and have a mini-breakdown.
Like most breakdowns, this one had been brewing. You see, I've had bouts of creative frustration since moving to London. I have a large network in New York, full of friends in creative industries. The other thing about New York is that it's like a small town - everyone seems to know each other. In London? Not as much. My network is smaller, the city is more spread out, and thus everything is harder which is frustrating.
That feeling, combined with my morning routing of scrolling through Bloglovin' overwhelmed me with anxiety. Blog after blog of perfectly designed layouts and editorialized stories about other people's lives that are picture-perfect in the way that life can only be on a blog has the potential to leave a gal at her wits' end.
The thing is, what's great about blogs is the same thing that can leave you feeling crappy about yourself. Blogs are inspiring - they provide endless visual inspiration, suggestions on what to read, watch, and wear, and make you feel like there's a whole group of like-minded people out there in the universe who are just like you, and even share the same taste in Pins.
When you get down to it, aside from being comforting, it's also pretty amazing that it's now so easy to connect with a group of strangers - people you may have never met otherwise - and find out you like the same things. But the downside is this: sometimes after going through my Bloglovin' feed, I find myself feeling less inspired and more "not good enough". My blog will never be that good, I need more customized photo shoots, does she design her layouts or does she have a designer and in that case how can she afford to pay them and herself, and worst of all - I'll never get to that level.
This all seems like an unnecessary panic, right? Why not just stop looking at blogs? Because of all of the reasons I listed in the first place: endless inspiration and a community of like-minded friends, right at your fingertips.
So I don't know about you guys but I'm learning as I go, and finding that the RSS flood of visual stimuli needs to be taken with a grain of salt. It's amazing, I love it more than anything and someday hope to turn blogging into a career of my own, but in the meantime, I like my blog and my life, thankyouverymuch.